Sunday was “record” attendance at our church as well as many across the country. I just wish it were that way each week. Kinda like a lot of people showed up for an event and then don’t darken the doors again. They got a “hit” and then moved on.
I guess I am not satisfied with the hit and miss crowd. But what choice do I have? It is what it is. I can cry about how “uncommitted” they are and how they oughta be in church more often. In all honesty the “large” attendance I desire is really to stroke my ego and let me know that I am doing the “right” thing and bringing in the numbers. Numbers is what it is all about in Baptist circles.
I get asked all the time, “So how many do y’all have in worship on Sunday?” I actually hate to answer that question. I know that no matter what my answer is the person will answer back with a larger number from the church they are attending. It almost sounds like they are saying, “Well, we are running such and such in attendance and that makes us a bigger and better church than yours.” They don’t really say that but that is what they are saying without having to say it.
The numbers game is used to prop up one church over another. When our association puts out its annual report, it is our human nature to look at the numbers and compare our church with other churches to see how we are doing. We do so to validate our church, we gotta make sure we are doing the right things. If we aren’t moving up in number categories then we aren’t doing God’s will, so to speak.
Churches are rewarded for numbers. Largest number of baptisms, giving etc. So we reward churches for having “certain” numbers and say to those that don’t, “You are inferior”. If your church has increased by a large number over a period of time, then you are recognized in many different ways. Why the pastor might even be given an honorary doctorate!
Large churches usually have a pastor who writes a book about his or her ”experience” and is invited all over the country to speak and is seen as a spiritual guru regarding church growth.
In the meantime, the small church pastors are doing what they do each and every Sunday. They see God at work within their congregation and thank Him for every small blessing that He gives. They preach their hearts out and see little to no results for months at a time and they wonder why. They feel inferior to other churches and ministries. They feel like giving up.
I know I feel like that often. I wonder why I am where I am. Then God reminds me that I was not called to be “succesful” as the world measures success, I am called to be faithful with what God has given me. I will never have my name on the cover of a national magazine or even a local publication, but preach His Word I will. Faithful to my calling I will remain.